Tuesday, January 3, 2012
First of all Happy New Year!
This year was pretty good and pretty hard. Something in between. But it was deff better then 2010. So here it is :-)
First 2 months i was really depressed so i won't count them here. My dad died in the end of 2010 and it was really hard so i was not in a good condition. But then in February night before i went to Milan i made my blog. It was the best decision ever because it really brought my mood back. I had a reason to go out and take ootd's and since it growed really fast i had no excuse to sleep all day. In March i got my fourth tattoo. In May I turned 21. Im getting really old but i really had good years and i know why i lived. :-) My mum was diagnosed with cancer and in October she had surgery. In June i finished my first year at Academia Del Lusso and died my hair. But it wasn't me so in August i turned back to blondes. And also on 15th of July my brothers daughter Lea was born. And in July I met a boy. In that moment i thought that he was love of my life so in September i packed my suitcases, left everything in Belgrade and went to USA with him. But after 3 months i realized that we are really different. I just couldn't stay there without my friends, my family, my dog.. I missed everything and it was just not the life i wanted. 3 months i haven't had a girl talk and it was killing me. So in December i packed my bag and came to Belgrade. But after 2 days i realized i wanted to stay. So we broke up. I ended up here without my wardrobe. (again) So December was bad and good. I was with my friends 24/7 and i havent had time to think about my relationship. I was disappointed because i really taught that he is the one, i was in love and when i realized that i was happier alone then with him it was devastated. You give someone everything, left everything for him and he just doesn't know to appreciate it. Fail. But life is going on, i had worse brake ups, worse moments, and I'm thankful to my friends for being there for me in every single moment. And i haven't deserve it because 3 months while i was in US my blog was the only place they could've seen me. So thank you my girls you know i love you.
Za pocetak Srecna svima Nova Godina!
Prosla godina je bila poprilicno dobra ali sa druge strane i teska. Nesto izmedju. Ali je definitivno bila bolja od 2010.
Prva dva meseca sam bila jako depresivna i jako retko sam izlazila iz kuce tako da ih necu ni racunati. Kao sto znate tata mi je umro krajem 2010 i to je bilo poprilicno stresno i traumaticno iskustvo od kojeg sam se jako tesko oporavila. A onda u februaru vece pred odlazak u Milano nastao je i Zorannah's Fashion Corner. Najbolja odluka u mom zivotu. Popravilo mi se raspolozenje i imala sam razlog da ustanem iz kreveta i postavljam outfit postove a kako je jako brzo krenuo da raste nisam imala izgovor da lezim u krevetu i spavam po ceo dan. U martu sam uradila i cetvrtu tetovazu. U maju sam napunila 21 godinu i stvarno pocela da starim ali ne zalim ipak se mnogo toga prozivelo. Takodje su mami otkrili rak i operisana je u oktobru. U junu sam zavrsila prvu godinu na Akademii Del Lusso i ofarbala se u smedje ali sam se vec u julu vratila u plavuse. 15. jula rodila se cerka mog brata Lea. Takodje sam u julu upoznala decka i mislila da je on ljubav mog zivota. Tako da sam se u septembru spakovala, ostavila ceo svoj zivoti otisla sa njim u Ameriku. Ali nakon 3 meseca sve je pocelo da mi nedostaje. Prijatelji, porodica, moja Lola. Ja tamo ni sa kim nisam popila kafu, nisam imala zenski razgovor, nista. Tako da sam u decembru spakovala kofer i dosla kuci na 5 dana. I odlucila da ostanem. Shvatila sam da u toj vezi ja nisam srecna. Opet sam ostala bez garderobe jer su mi stvari trenutno zarobljene u Cikagu :-( Tako je decembar bio polovican. Bila sam sa drugaricama po ceo dan tako da nisam imala mnogo vremena da razmisljam o propaloj vezi. Jedino sto sam osecala je bilo veliko razocarenje. Stvarno sam mislila da je on ljubav mog zivota i da je to to a onda posle 3 meseca zajednickog zivota shvatite da su neke razlike prevelike. Ono sto je meni normalno i sa cime sam ja odrasla njemu nije i obrnuto. Ostavite sve zbog njega a taj neko to ne zna da ceni dovoljno. Fail. Ali zivot ide dalje. Imala sam gore raskide, gore momente u zivotu i jako sam zahvalna mojim drugaricama jer su uvek tu. I ako nisam bas zasluzila jer su me 3 meseca gledale samo na blogu.
Hvala vama sto me pratite, hvala njima sto me trpe i vole.